Today we celebrate KCs Heart-A-Versary! We started our day delivering some goodies to the CVICU at Wolfsons for some people that loved us all the way through where we are today. KC was right at home with one of her cardiology dept. faves and a stethoscope.
I’ve written a lot about today but none of the words have seemed right. I had a post started about surgery day a year ago, then one about all my crazy moments leading up to it. There were a lot of those. next I started one about all of KCs growth since last year but I just couldn’t put the words together right.
This is definitely a day to celebrate and we are so grateful for the blessings that have been poured over us throughout her two years of life. but, at the same time, there’s been a lot of loss over the last few weeks in our little community; children’s lives suddenly ended makes celebrating today bittersweet. It makes me question why some journeys go one way and others go a separate way. I’m so thankful that KCs heart is now mended. I’m thankful we don’t rely on oxygen tanks and medications to function normally and any heart parent would tell you, The heart journey is scary and difficult and completely out of your control. We are so grateful and thankful that our journey continues but this year we are extra thankful for those that have showed such beauty and grace and strength and courage when their story didn’t go as planned. The main thing that I have learned over the last year is how truly precious each moment we are given is. I’ve learned that finding a piece of good in an awful situation is a choice that we each get to make. It was good that KCs heart wasn’t able to be plugged in the cath lab because it lead to surgery which lead to finding an extra hole which lead to the beginning of healthy lungs, etc. I learned that the celebration over KCs heart victory doesn’t mean much If i keep to myself and if I’m unwilling to reach out in love to someone struggling with loss or fighting just to hang in there. Today we celebrate mended hearts and changed lives because of those who chose to seek out and cling to the good through terrible times.
“We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:19